First Walk

Today, we took our first walk.  I don’t mean I have never taken a walk, that would be silly.  I mean to say today was the first time we walked around our home since moving here to Iowa.  I have walked about 20 yds back and forth in front of our house at night with the dogs, but have not had the opportunity to walk around our area since moving in.  We arrived in the beginning of winter, but of course, it has to be one of the harshest longest winters locals have seen.  Lovely, huh.  We just brought this crap with us, I think.  Anyway, today was freezing like any other day in MARCH, but the sun was shining and for the first time in a long time we could see all the gravel that is our road.

I had been sick in the last few days and am still not 100%, but I needed to get out.  So I bundled up and headed out with T. for a walk.  We only went about a mile or so, till we found our destination then begin to return home.  It is hard to say how far, really, since you don’t have very many obstacles to use as perspective markers to judge distance here.  It is mostly all flat cornfields.  Lovely, but vast!

T. discovered how to tell time using the sun and his shadow as we walked along the road today and realized that sound travels very far here, since there are no mountains and such to hinder it from reaching us.  We hear highways that I know are 10 plus miles away or more, we here cars pulling into their driveways from several miles away, but oddly enough when you are bundled up and walking next to each other it is hard to hear one another while talking unless you are facing head on. 😛

For miles around my home, various wild life run about in outcroppings of trees or running across empty corn fields.  We have all been alerted to a Mountain Lion close by.  It figures our next animal in T.’s lessons is the Mountain Lion.  How am I going to explain why a Mountina Lion isn’t in a region with mountains.  This should be interesting.  Do you see me squirming now?  Cause I feel it.

The wind cuts across the snow banks and creates wave formations that are so fragile to the touch they simply disintegrate.  Houses that look as though they are near, are in actuality miles away.  It was a cold walk and if T. walked softly at any point in his life, it would have been peaceful too.  Instead, T. really enjoyed jumping around and learning a new native american dance using one foot to hop twice one then exchanging feet to do the same double jump with.  He found this challenging and I found it very good for his balance and building muscle tone.

Now, after having a hearty lunch of leftover ham and potato salad, he lays here next to me and sleeps.  Probably not a wise decision to let him sleep but it is the only time I can relax my nerves.  Hopefully days will begin to get warmer and we venture out further in our area on our walks.

Here are some lovely pictures from our walk today.  Enjoy the scenery from my home.


A little before and after

It’s Finished Object show off time!!!

I had mentioned in the beginning of January that I began a set of socks on my new size 2 circulars in magic loop.  Well, here are some pics of during and the completed pair.  They were for Valentine’s Day.  I finished them the week before.  It was driving me crazy having them sitting there and not allowing myself to wear them until the day of.

Then, I want to show you a few pics of the fog icicles.  We have never seen them in the northeast, but here in Iowa it seems pretty common.  I have some pics from January and then a month later I got some more.  These icicles are not as long as they have been this winter.  One day we woke with 4 to 6 inch spikes growing from all the branches.

Our first holiday in Iowa

Since we aren’t really totally unpacked or recovered from the rather expensive move and house sale prep, I had decided we were not going to be having any celebrations for our Winter Solstice.  It was a rather strong internal struggle to have to put our Advent activities and our Solstice stories aside and to keep our tree and decorations in storage.  I really begin my winters inner work through this process and this year, my shift inwards has been skipped over and I am not sure when I will settle into winter work.  As for now, I must work outwardly and get my house in order.

The Solstice passed by with my chin held high and no observations enacted.  But T. has always been a strong believer in Father Winter and Santa and he expressed serious faith that they were going to find us, even though we moved.  My guilt became rather overwhelming that I had not put anything together for the boys to celebrate and keep the faith alive.  Our relationship with the boys, as of late, has been purely argumentative and cynical.  I began to rationalize gift giving, with thoughts that it might bring some kind of hope or at least not make things worse and crushing all spirit left in them.  So, knowing that B. needed a laptop, that was my first priority.  For T.  I was really torn.  I really wanted to give him something in equivalency to specialness and surprise, but not a laptop.  I also wanted to find him something that would help pacify him when out and about.  I know that sounds horrible and I really feel it is, but I am desperate now a days to survive each day through the explosions and such.  I did it!  I got T. a Nintendo DS lite.  He loves it and I am determined to find out how to make it really useful rather than just a play thing for the game cards.  Apparently there are all sorts of things you can do with this little machine, I just have to find out how and what.

(To make the scene clearer, we went out shopping and had to run a quick errand at Best Buy.  This was two days prior to Christmas.  I wasn’t thinking about holidays at this point and didn’t realize that this store wasn’t going to be as simple to maneuver around in as in the Hole Depot we had been to prior that day.  After what seemed forever, hemming and hawing over whether I should go ahead and purchase these spontaneous gifts for the boys, we had a hard time getting service, then the laptop we had asked for was out of stock, then we saw the one and only line.  It wrapped around the front of the store , down the furthest isle, then almost all the way to the back of the store.  We strolled outta of there with no purchases and a little frustrated.  I simply saw it as a sign of my stupidity and that it was not meant to be this year.  Wednesday(i think) S. went out and purchased all the items we picked out by himself.  I was surprised, pleasantly so. )

I have let the boys have total free access to their new electronics since opening them on Christmas, but that will soon slow down and become more monitored.  My guilt has not been totally subverted since I did end up giving them items I normally would not condone for children, but I am trying to meet my needs and the children’s needs with a more open mind and more hope and trust in the boys.  This is hard for me considering it’s me and they are they.  LOL  😛  Anyway, it was good to see them happy upon waking to gifts wrapped upon the couch laid out for them.  No Chocolate or candy, just some gum, DVD’s, B.’s Laptop and a pc game and T.’s DS and two games.

I look forward to Monday, when we begin to get back to schoolwork.  It’s been weeks since we have been able to focus on any school work and B. has some major catching up and T. too!!  We missed having out family close by as in NY, but we were able to phone family and friends.  It was very low key.  We cooked a lovely turkey for dinner.  I was a little nervous as to how it would come out, since I had not cooked one in this oven before.

I hope everyone is having a lovely Holiday Season!


Drat!  As soon as we got here, we needed to unpack and do laundry.  We have decided to leave our washer and dryer in New York to sell with the house.  This means we currently have no means of laundering our clothing at the house.  We found a very nice laundry mat a few minutes away and enjoyed a very yummy pizza at a restaurant named Tomaso’s.  Very good pizza, that is all they do!!  Nothing else on the menu.  Better be good, huh?

It was was a flashback for us.  It has been about 8 years since we have needed to use the local laundry mat.  We have had to go to the laundry mat three times now and we have ordered our new washer and dryer from Home Depot, to be delivered sometime this week.  Novelty hasn’t completely worn off, since we found a laundry mat that resides next to a very yummy Indian Food Restaurant.  One of our favorite types of food and the Tahjamahal is quality inexpensive food!  I am also excited that the restaurant is also a small Indian grocer, so I can find all sorts of the yummies I need to cook at home and my favorite soap!

As you can tell we are beginning to settle in and find our way around now.  I am really enjoying this area and for some reason I am not freaking out about the move and being in a new area.  I have no idea why and I hope its not a delayed reaction soon to come.  I feel really comfortable being here and am not scared of the new.  Weird!!!  I am anxiety woman, you know!  Happy!!